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8th-Jan-2017 01:59 pm - Japanese 101: hiragana and katakana
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All righty. I'm throwing together some weekly learn Japanese stuff for [personal profile] yhlee, and I'm posting it here for anyone who wants to play along.

This week's post is about hiragana and katakana. I'm going to focus more on drilling and just getting vocabulary out there than how to memorise the shapes and forms; there are many good resources available on Google for that.

In general, I'm going to try to convey what was useful to me as a learner and the methods I used to help brute-force my way to reading competence.

I'm going to try to keep the kid gloves off and throw in real words, with real difficulty, sooner rather than later. The faster we jump into the hot pan of reading real sentences, the faster we'll get to the kick of getting a mental reward for our efforts - without which learning is kinda hard.

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7th-Jan-2017 07:33 pm - Rakugo Shinjuu 2
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Holy fuck this show is so good I may actually die.

Yotaro. Yotaro. YOTARO. YOTARO!!!!! You wouldn't know heresy if it BIT YOU ON THE FACE but it doesn't matter because you are going to FIX THIS SHITSHOW MY BOY, YES YOU WILL
7th-Jan-2017 05:38 pm - YoI
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Wow. So. Uh. Those last three eps, eh. Talk about a series that's somewhere in between being baity/trope-inverty/sports-wtf.

So... anyone want YoI fic?
6th-Jan-2017 05:22 pm - Anime night ahhhahaha
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I haven't had an anime night to myself in ages, but tonight I SHALL CONSUME YURI!!! ON ICE and the new season of Rakugo Shinjuu. This post exists solely so that I can allcaps my reaction in the comments.

Snowflake challenge stuff to come later. Hi new flisters! Feel free to just jump into the comments here and hang out as well! :D
3rd-Jan-2017 10:04 pm - Fandom Snowflake 03: resolutions
So I'm trying hard to make each of these [community profile] snowflake_challenge posts a little bit useful or broadly interesting. Resolutions are a pretty hard one! I've found, ironically, that the major times I've been able to keep up new habits are under extreme duress (schedule is too full, running on empty, head on fire, heart in pieces) or extreme boredom. Funny how that works.

Fandom-wise, pretty much the only time I've been successful at writing at the last couple of years has been with challenges. [community profile] yuletide and [profile] notprimetime aside, anyone have favourites they want to share?

Day 03: In your own space, set some goals for the coming year. They can be fannish or not, public or private.Collapse )
31st-Dec-2016 05:54 pm - Yuletide 2016 Reveals
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It was a pretty productive yuletide! I wrote some longish, weirdo things that I'm really quite happy with - not everyone's cup of tea, but I had a lot of fun stretching as a writer this year. Also, my fandoms are Obvious McObvious.

Iain M. Banks - The Culture


Ever-Everland (8843 words, M for asphyxiation)
Reverse soulbond mindfuckery non-Special Circumstances life-romping. Er, I never said I was good at summaries.

Heike Monogatari/Tale of Heike

As Above, So Below (6583 words)
The Genpei War (or, er, a little bit of it, and, er, not actually the war itself) in space. That's right. Because one must always read bungo in order to punt characters into stellar conflict. (On that note, I'm amazed my own DW already has a tag "classics in space.")

Vorkosigan Saga

High Fidelity (3070 words)
Simon and Aral clue each other in about Jole.

昭和元禄落語心中 | Shouwa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu

A country with no mirrors (3601 words, E for intercrural adventures)
Kikuhiko lets Sukeroku get to him. Or: what happens when K is allowed to translate anything, ever.


and then the cracky gouda answer questions - written with Fram, Kat and Tana - that is just... IDEK man. Cheese. Cheesey?
31st-Dec-2016 02:29 pm - NYE Resolutions
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Hey, it's never too late to be early to some NYRs, right?


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26th-Dec-2016 12:42 pm - Yuletide 2016 Recs
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Showa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu

Tools of the Trade (9095 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: 昭和元禄落語心中 | Shouwa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu (Anime)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Yotaro/Konatsu
Characters: Konatsu (Shouwa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu), Yotarou (Shouwa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu), Kikuhiko | Yuurakutei Yakumo, Yuurakutei Sukeroku, Miyokichi (Shouwa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Supernatural Elements, Alternate Universe - Theatre, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Background Kiku/Miyo/Suke OT3, Misses Clause Challenge, Yuletide Treat
Summary: All they needed was a prop for the show. But sometimes, those old tools can seem to have a life of their own.

So here's 9K of something far different from the heart-string-ripping of the anime: it's a mundane/supernatural AU in the best of ways. Yotaro is a wonder, and Konatsu both practical and heartfelt. 

Master and Commander: The Far Side of the World

Than Dreamt of in Your Philosophy (1775 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Master and Commander: The Far Side of the World (2003)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Jack Aubrey/Stephen Maturin
Additional Tags: Crueltide, Supernatural Elements, Lovecraftian
Summary: Stephen could not even have said what woke him, after - he only knew that something had called him and he had gone, up to the deck, barely decent.

So, Lovecraftian/weird fiction has been a sleeper runaway this year for the stuff I've read, and this here. My god. The mystery of the seas combined with just perfect, perfect back-forth dialogue between Stephen and Jack. Subtle and perfect and bless the Tom Pullings cameo. Bless this whole fic, really.

Tang Dynasty RPF

A Change of Season (3456 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Táng Cháo | Tang Dynasty RPF
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Shàngguān Wǎnér/Wǔ Zétiān
Characters: Shàngguān Wǎnér, Wǔ Zétiān
Additional Tags: Misses Clause Challenge, Chromatic Source, Chromatic Yuletide, Palace Intrigue, strong women of history, corridors of power, Poetry, Love Poems, Mentor/Protégé
Summary: Shangguan Wan-er could think of no reason for the Empress to summon a palace slave to her presence. No good reason. It would be the first meeting of two of the most powerful women of Chinese history.

Hngngngngngn I'm not even halfway through the historical RPF this year but this one is just. It's Wu Zetian, for one. And has poetry, and court politics.

HP Lovecraft

The Long Summoning (2410 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Cthulhu Mythos - H. P. Lovecraft
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Additional Tags: Misses Clause Challenge
Summary:Time isn't real. There is only what you need, and what it costs.

I think I said in my AO3 bookmark, "holy crap this is good." Holy *crap*, this is good. 

Batman vs. Superman

Precision (4197 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Lex Luthor/Bruce Wayne
Characters: Clark Kent
Summary: Precision. Like a knife sliding through flesh and muscle, avoiding bone and striking a beating heart.

If I chant "this is the Lex/Bruce I have waited a lifetime for" three times in the mirror, will I get more fic?
26th-Dec-2016 12:37 pm - Yuletide 2016 Haul
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I was given a sheer embarrassment of riches this year! Not one but THREE main collection fics, and then another amazing piece in Madness. For the Vorkosigan Aral-Jole-Simon folks out there:

My main gift was A Winding Walk (2936 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Simon Illyan/Aral Vorkosigan
Characters: Simon Illyan, Aral Vorkosigan
Additional Tags: Breathplay, Dubious Consent, Mentions of Cordelia Naismith, Mentions of Ges Vorrutyer, Book: Shards of Honor
Summary:Simon didn't deliberately drop in on Aral Vorkosigan while the latter was drunk.

Besides the kink (ALL THE KINK), it's got Simon triaging Aral before Cordelia comes back to kick ass. Self-destructive Barrayaran-ness is a given.

Then there're my treats:

Only Memories Mine (1750 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Oliver Jole/Aral Vorkosigan, Simon Illyan & Aral Vorkosigan
Characters: Simon Illyan, Aral Vorkosigan, Oliver Jole
Additional Tags: Yuletide Treat, Time Period: Vorkosigan Regency, Bitterness, Exhibitionism, Aral jerking Simon's chain
Summary: Aral gives Simon enough material to oust him with.

This here is Aral giving Simon plenty to... work with. If you were wondering what Cordelia meant by Simon being in a bit of a tizz when he found out about Jole, this fic presents a wonderful reason why.

Then there's the magnificently cracky and yet poignant Never Getting Back Together (Like, Ever). (1444 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 2/2
Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Aral Vorkosigan/Ges Vorrutyer
Characters: Aral Vorkosigan
Additional Tags: 2016 Yuletide, Yuletide Treat, Crack, Epistolary, I'm Sorry, Captain Awkward, The Bad Advisor, Advice Columns, Darth Vader Ex, Canon-Compliant, mentions of canon-typical violence
Summary: My dear Captain, I need some scripts for dealing with my Darth Vader ex, who happens to be the brother of my ex-wife.

I'm not even going to try to summarise this guy. Just go read it.

they're changing guard at Buckingham Palace (Christopher Robin went down with Alice) (327 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Simon Illyan/Aral Vorkosigan/Cordelia Naismith Vorkosigan, Oliver Jole/Aral Vorkosigan/Cordelia Naismith Vorkosigan
Characters: Simon Illyan, Aral Vorkosigan
Additional Tags: Yuletide Treat, Polyamory
Summary: It was not possible for a man to stop loving Aral Vorkosigan.

This is Simon on the sane side of Providing Good Bad Ideas - another twist on Jole, and a great one.
11th-Nov-2016 07:04 pm - Fan Thursday
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Kicked off by [personal profile] astolat, there's now a Slack community – Fan Thursday – for fans in the community who want a place to talk and organise for change in the US.

(If you've never used Slack before, don't worry: it's just a really great chat programme.)

I'd love to get more people onto the community, especially if you're in the Colorado area. Leave a comment on this post on DW (comments are screened) or PM me on Tumblr with your email address and I'll send out an invite.

If nothing else, it's a really great place to meet people in fandom who feel like we have a responsibility and ability to make change happen, especially if you don't have a RL community near you to whom you can vent. :)
9th-Nov-2016 12:25 pm(no subject)
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If anyone wants to just talk/vent/talk-vent about other things, feel free to just... come into the comments and say hi and stuff. I'm finding that even if I'm mentally coming around to things, I'm community-starved right now. So, yeah. Open invitation, even if you're just randomly drifting by.
31st-Oct-2016 06:19 pm - Happy Halloween!
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Trick or Treat gave me an embarrassment of Vorkosigan riches!

Penance (308 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Simon Illyan & Aral Vorkosigan
Characters: Simon Illyan
Additional Tags: Trick or Treat 2016, ToT: Chocolate Box, Canon Compliant, Missing Scene, treat

Simon Illyan reflects on the past

Aral Vorkosigan (0 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Aral Vorkosigan
Additional Tags: Fanart, ToT: Treat - Freeform, Trick or Treat 2016, Extra Treat

Portrait of Aral Vorkosigan.

Cleaning House (459 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Simon Illyan
Additional Tags: Trick or Treat 2016, ToT: Trick - Freeform, Canon Compliant, Missing Scene

Simon Illyan, emptying out boxes...

So much Illyan and Aral love. :D
14th-Sep-2016 10:29 pm - brick walls
Right now, I’ve got a problem with group frustration.

I’m punching above my paygrade at work – and it’s frustrating. As a personal ethic, I believe you should punch however hard you can punch. Not people; people-cases you should modulate (do I need to bulldoze this person? Do they need to know all this information? Am I patronising them? Am I over-valuing them?). But work is work. Do the best job you can.

But at a certain point a few weeks ago I just hit a plateau where I just don't give as much of a shit anymore. Not no shits: I value being valued. I value doing my work. I'm actually valued by my peers and my superiors. I've gained some quantity of respect from them.

Still, the adage of never work for free? Holds. I am, obviously, not working for free. But they won't promote me this year because of corporate restructuring, and they couldn't raise me last year because of corporate bullshit. So now I'm a first-and-a-half year hire prancing roughshod over company-wide policy, shooting from the hip because every time I ask would any senior like to point this gun? the answer is eh, do what you judge best because we don't care enough to not trust you.

That's perhaps an oversimplification. But here's the difference between a leader I'll follow into the trenches (a Rufus Shinra, maybe, or a Kusanagi Motoko) and a leader I'll watch trip into a ditch: the former makes you feel part of an optimistic system.

I don't think an optimistic system necessarily needs to be a happy system. Maybe progressive is a better word? Or a vision? Whatever the word. I want a charismatic and technical leader. I need a charismatic and technical leader. Sell me your world and I'll build it for you, because I'm a good foreman but gods above am I a bad architect.

And right now it feels like I'm architecting my own path. Just bushwhacking through a system of incompetency on the right and vision that fell through on the left. Ambitious and vaguely rubbish. I'm thinking for my leaders, in some ways, and I don't want to do that. I want to want to be part of a system, and that's hard when I feel like I'm constructing bits of it out of bullshit I pull out of my ass.

Point is, there's group frustration. My seniors want shit done, but don't have the capacity or creativity to see it through. I want to get shit done for my seniors, but don't have the entirety of technical experience or, let's face it, clout to push their agenda through for them. They're frustrated at the system. I'm frustrated with their frustration at the system. We all hold hands during coffee breaks and understand the hard work we're doing, but I feel like an idiot monkey bashing nearly-Hamlet out on a typewriter.

I came home today fucked up and tired, and I thought to myself - let's play a game. I logged onto Overwatch, which is the dumbest idea I've had since... I'm not sure. I can't think of something I've done that's so dumb. Because after 9-5 of group frustration, I jumped right into the most group-frustration-y game possible. Six strangers shooting shit and failing. Nearly succeeding, too, which is worse. It'd have been better, maybe, if I'd just died 20 times in a row and done nothing. But I was mediocre. 60% okay. And each time at the end I'd zone out, or fuck up, or our team would fall to pieces, and it sucks.

I don't know where I'm going with this one. I think the gist is, I/you/people have to have a sense of balance. Frustration has to be balanced: either with success, or compensation, or satisfaction. And satisfaction in a job well done, when the job is – if not pointless as a learning exercise – fruitless as an executive one? Is nothing.

/sighs This is a ramble. Pied pipers don't exactly fall from the sky. Maybe I just need to learn how to play the fucking flute.

In other news, I've given up on this city in a lot of ways. I think instead of meeting people, I need to get the fuck out of here in a year or two: and in the meantime? Just... self-improve. Learn some Latin, pick up an instrument, get fit at the gym, relearn my cursive, read a bunch of good books, just hone hone hone until I can take comfort in time well spent, even if there's missing good company.
13th-Jun-2016 02:04 am(no subject)
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Wow. This is fucked, world. This is really, really fucked.


There shouldn't be a routine for dealing with grief and loss for the LGBTA community, but here I am. Trying to find the words and realising what's about to spill off the tips of my fingers is a checklist. Keep calm, carry on–

/logs off
15th-May-2016 02:49 pm(no subject)
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Boy is taking a shower and I am sitting here reflecting on the strangeness that is my life after 25 years.

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8th-May-2016 10:04 am - may life update
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* Kitchen is coming down (!!!!)
* Wallet is blowing up, as a result
* Got an enormous garden plot; I now have genetic greed
* Work is just a line of incompetent people sometimes
* Fun things with my hair
* I've missed every single midyear challenge, I feel: if anyone has any other prompts/challenges/bingos out there...
3rd-Apr-2016 09:12 am(no subject)
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Declutter has sort of failed in that I ran out of energy to pull everything out all at once. I may give it a second whack today, unless I go a-writing letters.

It is hard being in the wrong country for everything.
26th-Mar-2016 07:10 pm - decluttering
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I'm going to try a major declutter tomorrow. Serious one. Throw out 50% of my stuff declutter. We'll see how it goes.
26th-Mar-2016 02:58 pm(no subject)
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Nice hike today, and while I was out there I had a couple of thoughts about why I liked Three Body Problem beyond "cool words." All my own opinion, 'course.

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